peace + love + cupcakes
• This text that I received this weekend made me be on hold with my Internet provider for about 2 hours this afternoon. I’ve not been using my wifi on my iPhone because my connection keeps dropping. It isn’t my phone. It’s the GD modem from Comcast. I asked them to have a tech come out when I first spoke to someone but it took 2 hours & lots of swearing (not at the rep, I’m not that kind of person) to schedule someone to come out. That meant no gym today. When I see what’s going on in Oklahoma, I realize that I’m fucking ridiculous to get riled all by the small things.
• Weighed in at WW & their scale says I only gained .4. I’ll take it as my scale this morning said 1.8. Even though the majority of the member’s at today’s meeting were at least 20 years my senior, I’m still glad that I went. I don’t find that I have a lot in common with them but I don’t think another meeting time is doable for me.
• How awesome does this recipe look? I’m so making it this week.
Started my day with a healthy breakfast & a lovely message from Windows 8.
• Pear Chobani
• Protein pancake
• Chocolate Macadamian Nut Kona coffee with almond milk on the rocks
My plan after work is to go home & immediately change into my workout clothes. No relaxing on the couch or taking a disco nap. After that I’ll be going to my WW meeting to face the scale again.
I don’t know how long or how many miles I’ll run but what matters to me today is just to get moving.
Wah wah wah…
It also means no pizza (or donuts) at work since I’ve recognized that those are triggers that lead me in the path of all that’s carbs and sugar.
Something that I am proud of is that even when I know the scale will show a gain, I’ve never not stepped on it. I hold myself accountable for both the good & bad. I do wish I could get back to the good days though.
Have a great Monday everyone!
P.S. The Chocolate Macadamia Nut Kona coffee is AMAZING! You all need to try it.
One of the great things about tracking (when I actually do it) is that I can see & recognize any behaviors or triggers that may lead me away from my long term goal of being fit & healthy.
I seem to do really good on Monday through Wednesday morning. Wednesday night I become a snack monster and I try to get back in control on Thursday only to fuck it up on Friday which bleeds into the weekend. Then I start all over again in this pointless cycle.
I think I’ve found the culprits. Wednesday it’s pizza day at work & on Friday mornings we get donuts. Yesterday I had a healthy breakfast & snack and then two slices of pizza. They filled me up but didn’t really satisfy me. Then the snack monster was happily out & about.
The point of this post is to say that I won’t be having pizza or a donut at work anymore. The only thing these heavy carb & sugar foods do to my body is make it crave more carbs and sugars.
Woosah…
Woosah…
Woosah…
That’s what I will be saying all day today. Work has been a total cluster fuck. I’m not happy. It’s affecting me in a negative way. I, of all people, know how lucky I am to have a job especially after being unemployed for almost 2 years. But when I interviewed for the job, I was told the position was a certain way. Now that I’ve been doing it for over a month, I find that they were not 100% up front with me.
Woosah…
I’m trying something new. I really need to stop drinking so much coffee so I’m trying ToneItUp’s Bombshell Spell in the morning - organic pineapple juice, apple cider vinegar, maple syrup & lemon juice on the rocks.
Facts about ACV from the ToneItUp site:
• Keeps You Slim! Studies show that Apple Cider Vinegar helps regulate your blood sugar levels. This is an essential component of getting and staying lean! If your blood sugar levels are spiking and plummeting - simple starches like white bread, and sugary snacks will cause this - your body will store fat and increase your risk for diabetes and heart disease.
• Aids in Weight Loss! Not only is Apple Cider Vinegar rich in important enzymes that help your body detox, but it can also keep you feeling full and control your appetite. This means no more crazy snack attacks! ;)
• It Keeps Your Body Balanced. It’s super important to get your body back in balance if you enjoy coffee and the occasional cocktail! The acetic acid in ACV balances your PH to help keep your body alkaline. Why is this awesome? A balanced, more alkaline body means better immune function and increased energy! Yes, vinegar is acidic, but don’t let that mislead you ~ the effect of this vinegar on your body is extremely alkalizing. The same is true for lemons & limes.
I’m going to try to drink only one cup of coffee and see how I function. I’ve been drinking so much coffee lately that I think that’s they reason why I can’t go to sleep at a reasonable hour.
By the way, love my new granola - dark chocolate & red berries. Yes please! With some plain Greek yogurt, this breakfast is 6PP+.
Happy Hump Day!
While at work today, I was trying to things that I could do to get my ass in gear and get back to losing weight. I did great last week - tracked every day & stayed within my points. This week not so much. I didn’t track and ate everything around me. It’s a roller coaster that isn’t getting me anywhere and it’s my fault.
I was talking to my friend Andrea this weekend and we were talking about what motivates us to lose weight. For her, she is so close to goal that the number is what keeps her going. She is so close that she doesn’t want anything to get in the way. For me, i still have long ways to go and more if I continue to gain rather than lose. I decided to get this dry erase board to hopefully get me back on track. I do much better controlling myself when I have a goal in mind. Controlling food for the sake of losing weight isn’t enough for me. I need to see it because clearly knowing that I am losing weight isn’t enough right now.
Here’s my plan. Might seem vain or materialistic but I know that it will work for me. Whenever I reach 5 pounds (i.e. 285, 275, 265 etc) I will get my brows done. I hate plucking them but when you don’t have a salary you really can’t justify spending the money. But now that I do have some income, I can spend the money so that I don’t look like Frida Kahlo’s sister. Manicures are really a treat and they will be treated as such whenever I hit my short term goals.
The things that I can now afford to do or buy, I have to earn them by losing weight. I try to only eat out lunch once a week. Now if I don’t lose weight that week, I won’t be going out to lunch. I am hoping that by seeing these short term goals every day when I wake up & before I go to bed that they will motivate me to stay on track or hell at least find the track that I need to be on.
I’m off to my WW meeting. I was really motivated when I went to it two weeks ago so I hope that it has that same effect this time around.
Have a weird sunburn on my hands & my arms as a souvenir from yesterday’s game.
3 pound gain. What did I expect when I treated the whole week as a cheat meal.
Forgot my lunch at home.
Drove back to get lunch & checked to make sure my flat iron was turned off. Lunch was still forgotten.
I’m blessed with the life I have if these are my problems. Hope everyone has a terrific Monday.
Tra-tra-tracking like it’s hot paid off this week. I’m slowly but surely getting back to making good choices & not really having to think about making good choices - just doing them.
Have a great Monday everyone!
I know I shouldn’t have done it since my weigh-in day isn’t until Monday but I got on the scale this morning and surprise! If you make good choices & track your food you will lose weight.
Does that mean I can take it easy & let loose the next three days? I don’t think so. It means to keep doing what I’ve been doing the past four days so that my weigh-in will exceed my expectations.
Pants are starting to feel not as tight and I have some pep in my step. Saying no to myself when I want something that I know I shouldn’t has been easier than previous weeks. Glancing at my anchor (my Do Life tattoo) has really helped me as well.
Happy Friday everyone! Enjoy your weekend. It’s supposed to be in the high 80’s here. Whooo hooo!
In April I:
Ran some miles & completed my first half marathon.
Felt miserable & uncomfortable due to the horrible food choices I made.
Realized (again) that it isn’t about what I eat. It’s about changing my behaviors and how I view food.
Worked on setting a budget.
Plan for May:
Run some miles.
Work on changing behaviors by reaching out (WW meetings).
Be kind, rewind. Whenever I have doubts or feel like I’m going in the wrong direction, take a moment to look back and remind myself of what I have accomplished.
