I almost turned back after the first mile. I was just not having a good run. I felt out of breath & my legs felt heavy but I also was doubting myself. I sat down at a bench & gave myself a minute to catch my breath and to try to block any doubts I was having.
It started to rain and I decided to not listen to that internal voice telling me that I can’t do it & just started to run for the enjoyment of running in the rain. It started as a shitty run but it didn’t end up that way.