This week was a total failure as it regards to losing weight. I didn’t track or eat right & only exercised for 20 minutes all week. That is beyond ridiculous. I think my gain from last week and having no job prospects really got me down and I was sort of in a haze. I was just existing and not living. I don’t want that. If I look back at the past couple of days, it’s like a blur.
I had a gain of .8 this week. Could’ve been so much worse. Should’ve been so much more but perhaps I was more mindful with me eating than I originally thought. Am I going to continue this way? Heck no! I decided that I am going to change things up a bit. Normally I follow the WW PointPlus plan and I will continue to do so but I am also going to count calories. Part of my issues with food is that I at times I have no control over portions. Just because I can eat 4 bananas at 0 PP+ does not mean that I should. I am going to do try this method for the next couple of weeks to see how I do. Here’s my nutritional profile on MyFitnessPal.
I am hoping this plan will help with controlling my portions and keep me on track. This means every bite & nibble will be tracked. EVERY.SINGLE.ONE. That will be hard.
Fitness wise, I am starting where I left off last week which is Week 9 which consists of 4 days of 5K’s on the treadmill and a 6 mile brisk walk during the weekend. Since I didn’t work out this past week, my body feels so much heavier and I don’t feel as limber as I typically do. It’s back to the gym for me.
During the week I read a very interesting article which lists 17 reasons why you aren’t losing weight. Reason #13 describes me and my weight loss journey:
If you find yourself having mini self-contained internal arguments throughout the day (and you lose), or (even worse) lying to yourself about what you’re eating and doing, you’re probably also full of excuses.
I don’t know why I continue to do this to myself. This is the mental part of losing weight that I need to work on because I keep sabotaging myself.